He calls

It hit me like lightning, 

one sunset,

while I was on bed, holding my rosary.

I was talking to Him,

prattling, actually,

and begging.

Then, it paralyzed me for a minute,

my eyes and mouth agape.

It took the form of a song,

that old and very familiar one.

Here I am, Lord

Is it I, Lord?

I have heard You calling in the night.

I will go, Lord, if You lead me.

I will hold Your people in my heart.

Its words struck me deep, as always,

yet this time, 

it was sweet and piercing,

heavy yet weightless,

cold and burning!

But I held on to it,

and savored it in my mouth,

then down my throat.

It felt warm inside.

It went deep beneath my skin,

then into my bones.

Finally, it captured my heart,

every inch of it,

every valve and chamber,

every cartilage and muscle,

every vessel!

Next thing I know,

salty tears were streaming down my cheeks.

It was my longest one minute.

Yes, it hit me like lighting -

His voice.

Trembling, I acknowledged,

"God is calling."

That Day When Charles Talked to Professor X

Date: Now

Dearest Future Self,

I want you. Yes, I want you now.

If only I could reach you,

I know I'd be forever glad.

If only I could touch you,

and explore you,

I'd be whole.

If only I could get to know more about you,

I would surely love it.

But I must not stop waiting.

I must not stop reaching.

Because only through persistence,

real hardwork,

limitless patience,

and unceasing desire,

will I be certain

that that day would come

when you'll finally be,

not only reachable,

or touchable

or real and tangible,

but ultimately,

ME.

Sincerely and perpetually yours,

Your Old Self